As much as it gives me no great pleasure to say this...I've discovered that I'm mostly a Martha about things. You know the one in the Bible? All work and no play? That's mostly me. I spend a lot more time doing than just being.
I was thinking about it last night. There's this personality test that has me all wigged out because I can't figure out what I am. No joke. Except I do have this part figured out, the two times I've taken the test (oh yes, you read that right. And I'm about to try it a 3rd time cause I think it's still wrong. I'm that ridiculous!) there was a tag line that says, "You liked to be recognized for what you do." I guess I do.
But not like over the top praise. No plaque. No parade. Nothing fancy. I just want genuine acknowledgement that I am a hard worker. That I rock the house when it comes to getting things done. When it comes to multi-tasking I am a master. When my husband goes out of town for two weeks back to back and I've:
home-schooledbabysatbeensickworkedtaughtcateredfoodcookedcleanedtakenfieldtrips
I want a "Wow, you are one awesome woman to have done all that!"
Cause I am. =)
Anyway, I'm proud of that part of me. But I want to work on the other part too. I really do long to be a worshiper. Really, I already am a worshipper. When I'm in the middle of it I never want it to stop. The music is on and my heart is about to burst with love for who He is and what He's done. It just seems I don't get there often enough.
When I set aside the time it's worth it. Julie Meyer's conference gave me that chance a few weeks back. That was an intentional setting aside of time to be a Mary. To sit at His feet. I find it takes planning on my part. I'm not exactly Ms. Spontaneity when it comes to much of anything in my life so I guess I shouldn't be surprised.
I plan to plan (haha!) more time in His presence. I'm gonna practice up on my Mary skills. Because being busy is not all that I'm about. And it's definitely not what I want to be the most notable part of my life.
Time for a little adjustment for this mostly Martha.
I was thinking about it last night. There's this personality test that has me all wigged out because I can't figure out what I am. No joke. Except I do have this part figured out, the two times I've taken the test (oh yes, you read that right. And I'm about to try it a 3rd time cause I think it's still wrong. I'm that ridiculous!) there was a tag line that says, "You liked to be recognized for what you do." I guess I do.
But not like over the top praise. No plaque. No parade. Nothing fancy. I just want genuine acknowledgement that I am a hard worker. That I rock the house when it comes to getting things done. When it comes to multi-tasking I am a master. When my husband goes out of town for two weeks back to back and I've:
home-schooledbabysatbeensickworkedtaughtcateredfoodcookedcleanedtakenfieldtrips
I want a "Wow, you are one awesome woman to have done all that!"
Cause I am. =)
Anyway, I'm proud of that part of me. But I want to work on the other part too. I really do long to be a worshiper. Really, I already am a worshipper. When I'm in the middle of it I never want it to stop. The music is on and my heart is about to burst with love for who He is and what He's done. It just seems I don't get there often enough.
When I set aside the time it's worth it. Julie Meyer's conference gave me that chance a few weeks back. That was an intentional setting aside of time to be a Mary. To sit at His feet. I find it takes planning on my part. I'm not exactly Ms. Spontaneity when it comes to much of anything in my life so I guess I shouldn't be surprised.
I plan to plan (haha!) more time in His presence. I'm gonna practice up on my Mary skills. Because being busy is not all that I'm about. And it's definitely not what I want to be the most notable part of my life.
Time for a little adjustment for this mostly Martha.
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