OK - I am so not talking about romantic love here. On that front I stand that love is a choice and it has to be chosen everyday. Especially if you've been married any length of time past one year. Just sayin'...
Moving on. I'm talking about my life. It's not exactly what I would have chosen. Some parts of it are; lots of parts of it are not. My dreams had me somewhere between traveling all over Asia with a backpack and a camera and working in an awesome high-rise in some big city. Nicely enough I've done both those things already. They were fun. Maybe I'll get a chance to do them again some day.
Also on the top of my dream list were the two wonderful children I have. In the order I had them. Girl. Boy. Love it! I have some dreams of others coming in to our family from some different nations but that's a dream for another day.
I have enough dreams for myself that I'm going to need several lifetimes to live them all out. I'm reminding myself of my dear friend Selma with all this dream talk. That's ok. I like her.
The parts of my life that don't exactly sync up with the dreams I've dreamed? Not important. And this I realized as I was looking out a doctors office window today at a beautiful tree blowing in the spring breeze. And I realized I'm happy. And that it's that simple. I can choose to be happy, but a lot of times it doesn't even feel like a hard choice. I just AM happy. And I let the little things make me happy. Pretty trees. A great view. Laughing kids. A good worship song. Baking cookies at midnight. Whatever.
I'm happy with the parts of the dreams that came true. I'm happy with the other parts that I know are still on the way. And I'm excited about the dreams I haven't even had a chance to dream yet.
I'm glad to be living this time in my life. There are definitely things I'm not happy about. Even dreams I've had to grieve over and lay to rest (at least for now). There were some rose colored glasses I had to take off. I give myself permission to be happy about things, about life! even though it isn't exactly what I had planned. I'm not going to delay my happiness just because everything isn't all sorted out just right. Just because I don't see things working out the way I thought they should/would.
The bottom line is: it's good to be happy with where you're at (not just talking physical location here). Especially if you know God has you there for a reason.
